Last night I had a nightmare.
I was no longer allowed to stay in Chile.
I had to finish my study abroad requirement in England.
The reason for this sudden change had something to do with the fact that I had dreaded coming to Chile in the first place--you know how in the dream it makes sense but then later when you retell it you realize it doesn't make any sense? it's kinda like that.
I was crying, kicking, and screaming. Now way could I leave my host family so soon! My friends! My new way of life! This language! This culture! I was coming up with every possible way I could stay here. Drop out of Messiah and enroll in PUCV? be a bum and beg for money all day? ask Myriam to adopt me? Nothing was working.
Thankfully...I woke up...out of breath and with tears still in my eyes. What a relief that it was only a dream. I still have 4 months.
1 month has already passed so quickly, though. I'm sure 4 months will be over soon enough and I'll be crying as I pack my things to go back to the States. It's kinda strange because I had the same super-hesitant feeling about COMING to Chile. and Now I have it about leaving Chile. Why? I'm not sure. But I'm thinking it has something to do with being where God wants me to be. I'm most content and peaceful when I am where He wants me. I must try to keep this in mind when it comes time to return to the US. I really hope He wants me to return to Chile someday. someday soon.
I was no longer allowed to stay in Chile.
I had to finish my study abroad requirement in England.
The reason for this sudden change had something to do with the fact that I had dreaded coming to Chile in the first place--you know how in the dream it makes sense but then later when you retell it you realize it doesn't make any sense? it's kinda like that.
I was crying, kicking, and screaming. Now way could I leave my host family so soon! My friends! My new way of life! This language! This culture! I was coming up with every possible way I could stay here. Drop out of Messiah and enroll in PUCV? be a bum and beg for money all day? ask Myriam to adopt me? Nothing was working.
Thankfully...I woke up...out of breath and with tears still in my eyes. What a relief that it was only a dream. I still have 4 months.
1 month has already passed so quickly, though. I'm sure 4 months will be over soon enough and I'll be crying as I pack my things to go back to the States. It's kinda strange because I had the same super-hesitant feeling about COMING to Chile. and Now I have it about leaving Chile. Why? I'm not sure. But I'm thinking it has something to do with being where God wants me to be. I'm most content and peaceful when I am where He wants me. I must try to keep this in mind when it comes time to return to the US. I really hope He wants me to return to Chile someday. someday soon.
Rach,
ReplyDeleteI'm wondering if you might need to be more careful about the Chilean food you eat before you go to bed - it doesn't sound like Columbian Chocolate Chip to me!! Bless you GC-TAXI
hahahahaha Grampsssss :) funny. i WISH i had columbian chocolate chip ice cream here.
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