sueños

[In good MLKJr. fashion] I had a dream[!] last night that it was July and I was heading home like all the good little gringos. However, it was only for a week because I was returning to Chile for a second semester abroad. This dream got me thinking about all the things I can't wait to come home for!

• Texting all my peeps nonstop :)

• Picture walks and laughter with my bee eff eff <3

• Hangin' with all the Thrive girls!

• Playing guitar with people who play guitars (Andi, we should totes play while the girls sing for special music. As of now the only church song I know really well is Beautiful Things by Gungor. look 'em up).

• Working at the Coffee Shop

• Family time...homemade pizza, smiles, games, movies, jokes, teasing, hugs.

• Thrive leading (I'll be practically 21 when I come home = real leader. not in training.)

• a good GPA

• Sharing my experiences, things I've learned here, and encouraging everyone I know in their walk with God.

• College hang outs and late nights and who knows what else dear Emi and I shall get ourselves into :)

All this got me thinking....WHEN CAN I GO HOME?! why am i staying here again? I started to have a lil panic-freak-out session. Will staying here destroy my GPA? My scholarships! Will staying here drain my bank account?! I need to work. Will staying here another semester without my current gringo support (yay Ariana & Chris) make be nothing but depressed and frustrated with life? Whereas now I'm closer to God than when I left, will staying undo that so that I'll be less useful when I return home in December as opposed to July? What if something goes wrong and I CAN'T finish psych major?! AHH! I have to call this off!

.....still, small voice....
Do you trust Me?

Yep. I trust You. I trust You with my future, with my finances, with my emotional state, with my relationships, with my education, with my life. Staying here in my own strength is...a bad idea. I will likely fail at gaining what I want to gain for life the way I'm planning it. But staying here in God's strength, guidance, and love is....a GREAT idea! It will likely be exactly what I need for life the way He has already planned it for me.

In the [altered] words of the Beatles....All I need is God. God is all I need.